(start very quiet...)Everyone said I was worth something,
but you though i was worth nothing...
It was a flash of pain,
Heart of rage,
And I was sorry, so sorry.(get sadder sounding)
That i had done this to myself.
I had pray'd and pray'd and
Pray'd for days(pause)
But no one came to save me
I was huddled in a corner
Oh it was dark, dank, depressing,
And i was sorry, so sorry,(pause) for him...
But didn't he understand?! (get angrier)
HE was supposed to be there...
(pull back a little..) Always there..
(get angrier again) But HE decided it'd be better to scream
and yell and me ME feel weak.
(not as angry)I was young, feeble.... emotional
NOW(get angrier again) i'm older, wiser, stronger
i can win..
No more brusies and scars for me...
at least not ones that YOU make
But the ones that are ment to kill...
Were placed there by me...
God finally answered my prayer
I'm gone (pause) and you are happy.
But are you reallly? (very questionable)
Your child, me, has left you
By the most violent means possible..(pause)
There still is an akward scilence..
That hangs between us
And i'm not sure why you are crying..(start to sound sadder)
And i'm not sure why you even came..
(pause..)
Your tears along with many others
Are falling on my body like rain..
Rain the brought sadness on a cold day
It quieted the childrens laughter
As they saw my wooden life carried away..
(pause, next sound very exausted)
Finally, i'm nearer to God then ever...
And farther away...from you..